08.03.2025

I want to talk about manifesting & the things I'd like to visualize and manifest into existence. 

I am deserving of a home where I can easily get laundry done. Somewhere that has an outdoor space for Daisy to play. Somewhere that feels homey; a place that makes me want to get rid of the old and embrace the change. I deserve to move because I want to and CAN, not because I have to. I deserve somewhere with an understanding landlord, where I don't have to pay silly additional fees to fill their wallet; someone who lives the fact that housing is a right. Somewhere where I decorate & make fun DIYs that make the space my own. Somewhere where the rent is affordable and I can comfortably pay it. A place where Gracie, Chloe and baby to be can come for sleepovers. A space where I don't feel cramped or somewhere I can't feel independent/free.

I am deserving of a job where I feel fulfilled & enjoy going to work every day. I make a livable wage that fully covers my bills and can save monthly towards buying a home of my own. A job where I get benefits, ample time off, good hours, somewhere that doesn't exhaust me. Perhaps a teacher? I sometimes get upset with myself because I don't know exactly what it is that I want to do. But maybe that is the whole point. In the 26 years I have been on this earth I've changed jobs numerous times. And if teaching is something that would fulfill me that I want to go for it. It feels like teaching has been placed on my heart. I think about the girls and Bowen. Spending time with them fills my heart in a way I never expected. I always said I wouldn't work with kids because it's too hard. But I think I was more scared than anything. I think back to all of the teachers that shaped me to be the person I am today and truly I owe it to them. I would need to finish my bachelors degree and do teacher college, but in a couple of years I could see myself in my first teaching job.